Glad you finally got a chance to 'digest' it all oversized.
Yea I have put a lot of thought into all my essays, and hope that they will allow others to evaluate their own magic mentalities at a more introspective, and personal level. I have about 4 others in the making, about 3 others buried here somewhere, and about 6 unpublished in which I have not totally finished yet. I am a current contributor to online-visions.com when I get the time.
Also my own writings even motivate me to look at my magic at a much deeper level, and try to answer all the questions that arise constantly. Some may say that they do magic simply because they love it, or that they love the reactions of people, etc. But you can go even deeper than
Why do you like making people believe that you are doing something by supernatural means? Is the pay off really worth it? Why? Does the pay off exceed the price? Are positive outward reactions always a determining factor to your magic's success? Or is just doing the magic always good enough? Does the lack of any positive feedback discourage your efforts overall? Are you in it for yourself, the spectators, or both?
Is the potential financial burden truly worth "possibly" amazing some now faceless, and unknown spectator in the future? Is it important that you be reimbursed financially for all the money that you have invested into the art? Is the reactions of people an acceptable enough payment? If you do not receive the expected reactions, are you still content regardless?
These questions, and many more will allow one to really try and decipher why they are doing magic day in, and day out. What keeps them coming back for more, and why they need to keep growing, and prospering in the art. That was my ultimate goal, and point of writing the article.