you didnt help me
all u told me is that i suck
Honestly, you have to toughen up. You have shown over and over again that you can't take any criticism. You aren't the greatest magician. You aren't going to just be able to go out and make money. Not everything is going to be handed to you. These aren't insults, these are things to think about.
Before you start claiming anything, make sure you can back it up. Practice more. From what I have seen, you aren't that skilled yet. You have a lot to work on. And it's going to be hard work. No one wakes up one day and finds out that they are great in this art. It takes hours or even years to become great. The practice has to be put into this art, or you will get no where.
As I said earlier, stop trying to focus on getting paid gigs. It seems as if you are too interested in the money. Magic isn't about money. And just because you can do a couple of tricks, doesn't mean you should get paid. I mean, you're what, 12-13 years old. You can't even legally work in a restaruant. So why worry about it at all? And if by chance, someone would illegally hire you to do walk-around in a restaruant, you aren't going to make it for long, because you can't take criticism.
If in the future, you want to get into restaruant magic, get some sources on it. Kirk Charles has a guide on it, as well as Live at the Jailhouse. From your first post, it doesn't seem as if you even know what you are doing, and those two sources will help you out a lot, for the future. When you can actually take a job.